survival of days one & two

Well ladies, I made it through days one and two of work. We all know I would make it, because it’s not like I am the first momma to head back to work but we all share our own battles with leaving our beautiful babes behind. When I left for work on Monday, I said my good-byes and ran out the door, only to make it a few steps off my doorstep before the water works began. I started my car, turned on the windshield wipers and wished I was bundled up under my brown throw with my baby in my lap rather than heading to work wearing too tight non-preggo slacks and a frumpy sweater. When I got to work it was like, well, Melissa is back so let’s throw it all back on her, she is of course our general manager. My head was pretty much spinning all day, trying to take in all that I had tried to forget while out for four months but sadly, it all came back to me like riding a bike. My biggest fear of the day was seeing employees of mine that I had “issues” with prior to my maternity leave but I decided the best way to alleviate my stress was to squash it immediately and show them how emotionally stressed I was with returning back to work. Who knows if it was effective but I feel a whole lot better! With all this said, leaving today was a lot easier, the day went by faster and when I came home my happy baby was waiting for me in Grandma’s arms. I cannot thank you all enough for your support through your comments here and on FB. I know as the days go on, everything will get easier but I am not one for change and this is a huge change.